Two days before next chemo

Two days before my next chemo treatment. I am nervous. I know what to expect kinda, but still nervous. Nervous for what will come side effects wise the following week. Nervous for needing to shave my head before it all falls out. Nervous that once I do shave that i will think of myself as sick every time i look in the mirror. Nervous for the sad looks I will get. Nervous....

Lots of emotions flowing through at the moment. Positive thoughts really go a long way. I know I will survive this. I am a fighter and we have come  a long way with cancer treatments. I do not think this has spread. I think we are contained. I have plans in place for what I really want during this next year.   One day at a time... in my case in two days, more toxic waste being pumped into my body. My poor body will have to fight to flush it out, at the same time, the chemo is flushing out the cancer cells.

More hair coming out :-( itchiness, and sunburnt feel is annoying. Still holding on to my hair to the moment even if part of it is in my hand

Two days before my next chemo.....