This week has been less than stellar. It would make most people curl up in a ball and want to sleep the days away. My kids have been extra special at night and in the mornings. You know the only time I have with them. I have screamed at them more than I care to admit. It’s been rough. Some nights I have cried myself to sleep with the promise that tomorrow will be better. And you know what? I woke up and it was slightly better. I didn’t scream as easily. My feathers were not ruffled as much as the previous days. I took baby steps and that’s OK. I improved, I kept my promise. I was able to step back and realize they needed a connection to me. Especially my oldest, he becomes a terror when not feeling connected. But even he recognized it. Wednesday he refused to go to school. Normally we would have fought and he would have gone. He wasn’t sick but it was the day after a horrible, no good night. So I said okay. As long as he didn’t bother me while I worked. He promised and delivered! I was so proud of us both. He asked for snuggles when he needed it. Laid on the couch and watched transformers. He got alone time, mama time, and a mental break from everything and a physical break from people too. It was an amazing day.
I love how at 5 he recognized what he needed to be happy and calm. I am proud of myself for starting each day fresh, choosing to be happy, choosing to behave better, choosing not to react so badly. Happiness is a choice. I say this over and over but it’s the truth. You wake up every day and decide. You can wallow in all that has or will go wrong. You can keep complaining about the same things or you can make and keep promises to yourself, you can choose to change things, you can choose to be happy!
Life is good my friends. Don’t let it pass you by because you keep choosing to be grumpy! Choose happiness, every single day!
~Jamie
