Day 108

"Never regret. If it’s good, it’s amazing. If it’s bad, it’s experience."

Every experience, every choice, everything that you do makes you who you are.  Did you make a bad choice?  no worries.. it made you who you are and hopefully you learned your lesson.  Did you smile back at that cute person who smiled at you?  That is amazing!  Why not smile back?  Doesn't matter if it goes  further. It made you feel good.  Life is nothing but a bunch of choices and experiences.  You can make the most and learn from everything you do and experience, good or bad.  Or you can dwell and be negative and regret everything, run though every choices and wonder what if?  What if... is that your life would be COMPLETELY different.  You would not be you. You would not be where you are.  Now if you look and say, " I am a sucky person I regret  xyz"  Ok then go ahead regret, but then  move forward.  Know that you can become a better person if you want.  You just have to want it.

I recently had an old friend say,"I sometimes wonder what would have happened had I waited for you"  My response was simple.  " You and I would never have worked back then.  We were different people.  I am who i am today because we took different paths.  And never regret, you have two amazing children due to your path."  I meant that.  I am a completely different person than I was at 15, 20, 25 and even 30.  (Now I am aging myself)  But truly, I have learned from each experience.  I have experienced so much and seen so much. I am such a better person because of my experiences. People ask me if I regretted getting engaged to Goober.  And no I do not.  He taught me to realize how strong I am.  I am so much stronger than I ever thought I was.  He taught me communication is sooooo important in any relationship.  He taught me that I know I can make it through the teen years through dealing with him.  He helped make me the happy person I am today, because I did not want to be that grumpy person he was.  I did not want that life.  So no I do not regret that.  Every long relationship I have had, has taught me something.  I am a better because of them.  I know who I am and what I want.  So do not regret, learn, embrace and become the best you because of those experiences!

Love this!

Day 107

"Embrace change. As uncomfortable as it is sometimes, change allows us to grow. New things feel awkward and sometimes really scary, but those feelings go away, and you are left with something bigger and amazing in your life."

As scary as change is.. it almost always brings me peace and happiness.  Even if that happiness does not last, it happened.  It changed who I am.  It made me a different and hopefully better person.  I had a conversation with a friend last night about being scared after being hurt so badly by a spouse.  Just because the past person was not so nice, does not mean the next person will be the same way. Sometimes you just need to go with the flow and see where it takes you.  Sometimes just opening up yourself to new things, brings amazing things.  Am I scared of getting hurt in new relationships? yes of course.  There is one in particular that if I think about I tear up.  Not because I do not like this person, but because I do and I think about the possibilities  of getting hurt.  But if I dwell on it, I will never know if amazing things could happen. Remembering to take each day and just enjoy it helps me not dwell on the what if's.  No one likes to hurt others.  Well most people do not.  Sometimes it happens. But sometimes.. sometimes.. it does not.  So do not go through life scared and afraid to try.  But instead open yourself up and see what may come!

Day 106

"People who are meant to be together will find their way back to each other. They may take detours, but they’re never lost."



I see this over and over again. People meet, go on about their life, then meet up again later, fall in love, and live happily ever after. It has been amazing watching this happen to friends. One of my friends, his wife and he dated, did not see each other for 12 years and now have been married for 25. Another friend just started dating her high school crush. Another got back with her husband after being apart a year. They just could not live without each other.

Sometimes I wonder will that happen to me. Especially after the weekend I just had. I met back up with my first real crush, the boy who gave me my first real kiss. He has lived an entire life. Married, kids that are basically grown and is now figuring out him and where he wants to be in life. It was nice seeing him. Those butterflies are still there. His touch still sends shock waves through my system. He makes me forget that any other boys exist, even SB. We talked and talked and flirted and talked. The end of the night, he kissed me and I felt 12 again. I could not stop smiling. We met up the next night and again it was just fun, comfy like we never missed a beat. Our personalities fit, we laughed and kissed and talked and just had fun. Where will it take me? Who knows. I am just enjoying the slowness, we both seem to want to take and enjoying having a crush on someone who is crushing back. One day at a time. Still lots to figure out, but I am not thinking of that now. I think for now I will enjoy whatever may come. He is very kissable, a nice pillow and not too bad on the eyes.



Keep your mind and heart open. Who knows what or who might come into your life when you least expect it. Just be you.. be happy and good things will come!

Day 105

Wow. Today was like Christmas FSU beat the gators and my crush likes me back. Great day and dreams do come true. oh and I have proof I ran the 5k  http://www.backprint.com/view_user_event.asp?PID=bp%12zNs&EVENTID=93241&BIB=1071&S=230&PWD=


Go me!


Okay time for sleep

Day 104

"Develop an attitude of gratitude. Count all of your blessings, even the things that seem trivial. Be grateful for your home, your work and most importantly (at least to me) your family and friends. Take the time to tell them that you are happy they are in your life! ♥ you guys!"



I love love love love my friends and family. I know I know I say this often but to me, you can never say it enough. Who does not love hearing they are awesome and appreciated? Not me! I love hearing my friends say they love me and i love telling them I love them. AS for work yes some days I let the stress get to me. But I work with some pretty fabulous people who love me despite of me. I have a cute little house that is mine and well the banks. Some fairly awesome pets who make me feel like I am the sun in their world. Do not believe what people say. Life is good! You just have to open your eyes and look around!

Day 103

"Either you’re going to take action and seize new opportunities or someone else will. You can’t change anything or make any sort of progress by sitting back and thinking about it."



It is funny some days I just wish my only worry was how fast it will take to straighten up my house and what I am cooking for my family for dinner. When did that dream life go away? When did my wanting to be an independent hard working woman happen? I must have wanted it right? That is where I ended up. I was not the sit at home kind of girl nor would I have appreciated what all it had I gotten what I wanted. I seized opportunities to be successful. It feels good knowing I can. I will always know I did not settle. I am glad that every day I think about being happy and do my best to make sure i am. I wake up smiling and go to sleep smiling. During the day I falter, but I at least go to sleep with a smile on my face, which is better than most people. I do know sitting and doing nothing will ensure you definitely do not move forward. I would much rather do than do nothing :)



And lately with dating, i feel the same way. I feel like boys have become complacent. That girls can come to them. But is that really the girls you want? The easy girls.. maybe.. but I am not easy nor will i ever be. I like a challenge so i give a challenge. I feel like nothing is worth keeping if it did not have a little work involved. I love feeling special and i love making someone feel special.



So make your decision and work for it. I know I will be!

Day 102

"Good looks attracts the eyes. Personality attracts the heart. If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy."




So lately I have heard lots of people complain about boys who say they like them but they just do not put forth the effort. No one is a mind reader. if you want her, let her know. Make the effort. A girl should not be the one asking the boy out. Woo her show her she is special. Make her feel like she is the only one and she will treat you that way in return. Do not just say things, do things. Ask her out, make time to spend with her, especially when she tells you she wants to see you. Make it happen. If you need guidance watch Millionaire matchmaker. She will totally school you in the ways of making girls feel special. And really if you have a happy girl who knows you care and feels how special you think she is, the right one will make you feel that same way back. But if you do not put forth the effort. She knows you are not worthy of hers!

Day 101

"There are few joys in life that equal a good conversation, a good read, a good walk, a good hug, a good smile, or an amazingly good friend."



Good conversation makes for lots of laughs. I love love love good converstation.


A good read.. the one where you just cannot put it down even know you know you will be SOOOOOOOO tired in the morning. MMMM amazing.

I love walking around my neighborhood. Seeing kids laughing and playing. Exploring new things. And the feeling that comes with knowing you were active.

A good hug warms you inside and out. Makes you feel safe and secure.

A good smile warms your heart and you cannot help but smile back and we all look prettier when we smile. WIN WIN

A good friend. Ahh i am a lucky girl. I have some amazing friends. Friends who would go to the end of the earth with me. Who make me laugh when I am sad. Who tell me when I am being silly and in need of an attitude change. Who tell me like it is and love me for my faults. I cannot ask for more in life. I am happy because of my friends and who they let me be! Appreciate the simple things!

Day 100

100 bottles of beer on the wall. HAHAHA That is what just came to mind. Awesome!



"Complaining is like slapping yourself for slapping yourself. It doesn’t solve the problem, it just hurts you more."



Laugh i know you want too. It is ok. Because if you think about it, it is true. Our instincts are to say I had a bad day.. then the other person asks "what happened?" And we say "Blah blah blah" Do we feel better? No, at least i do not. I feel more agitated, and aggravated because I am re-living that experience ALL over again. So I have started saying, "it doesn't matter, it is over, just a bad day, let's laugh" I feel better, I am no longer slapping myself over and over again explaining why I am in such a foul mood, I just get out of the foul mood so no explanation is necessary. Is it easy? No. but totally worth the extra effort, unless you just like the bruises you keep getting. Some may. Some people thrive on that pain. Not me, at least not anymore. I like the easy peasy road in life. The ones with a few bumps but nothing too harry! And nothing that stresses me out. I stress enough at work. Once home I life to just enjoy life. Enjoy my friends and life!

ps great time with my girls last night! My two faves always know how to make me laugh! and boy did we laugh!

Day 99

"Laugh at silly jokes. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. It’s the small moments that make life amazing!"



Life is too short. Laugh.. even when you may not want too. Laughing soothes the soul and makes you whole.


Say You are sorry. It is not hard and it doesn't matter if you are right or wrong. Just say it. Make the other person know that you love them, never let them doubt it! if you do you may never get the chance to tell them. Every choice we make determines the next steps in life. Enjoy each.




Lately I have been reminded how you must tell people you love them. I have been making an extra effort to make sure others know how I feel about them. Because not knowing is not fun. Stop making people guess. Be honest, communicate and love :)

Have a very happy day!

Day 98

Admit to yourself what you don't know, and you begin to evolve.

No one knows everything. You are a fool if you think you do. Yes i said it a FOOL. Embrace the unknown. Seek out something new to learn. You cannot evolve without learning new things and you should always be evolving! Without evolving you cannot be the best you that you can be!

Day 97

Consider today the opportunity of a lifetime. Start fresh. Happy Monday!

Every day is a new day. We hear it, but we do not always believe it. I am definitely one that needs to remember this daily. Today, a co-worker is waiting for his wife to have their baby. A new life will be born, a new beginning. Life happens when you are not looking. It is almost the end of the year and it feels like it is the beginning. The world spins, the days turn into nights, which turn into days. Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into years. Live today like it is your first and last. Tell those around you how much they mean. Never waste a second of your precious time!

This weekend one of my besties and I resurrected Brunch Sundays. The end of the weekend and the beginning of the next week. We talk about all the fun we had, the challenges we faced and how we can get through ONE MORE WEEK! You can always get through one more day, one more week. Keep focused on the good and the bad find it's way out of your life!

To new beginnings and happiness! (Yeah I am that cheezy today)

Day 96

I have been sick sick sick all week. Sicker than I have been in YEARS! What have I learned from that? Even the cutest kids have germs and I probably shouldn't cuddle with cute sick kids and that your true friends will be there to help take care of you. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my friends. I had an outpouring of offers to bring me soup, medicine and anything else I needed. i slept more than I was awake and i was able to weed out a not so nice boy from the dating mix as he so jokingly said " sure you are not having morning sickness" Yeah I am sure dick! So I slept this this week, like I was my cat. I feel better, I look better and I got rid of a dick hehehe. Life could not be better even if I am still slightly snotty. And today is 11-11-11 A HUGE THANK YOU to all of those who serve in the US armed forces an to their families for living without them while they keep us safe. I am glad to know heroes still exist! Much love to you all!

Day 95

"Don’t carry everything on your shoulders; that’s what friends are for"

I love my friends, they never let me forget they are there to help me through happy and sad times. The friends that are around and the ones I want in my life never let me down. They just know what to do. They love me despite my faults, as I love them despite theirs. I have lots of people in my life, but the ones I can count on are small in numbers and I am ok with that. I like knowing we are there for each other, like a messed up family. They say you change your group of friends every 7 years. I think that is accurate for the most part, but out of all of those groups, at least one usually sticks around for life. I treasure those people. I love that I have friends dating back 30 years. I love that they knew me when and still love me, I am glad we continue to not lose touch and always try to find time for each other. Friends are a very important part of life. Never take them for granted and make sure they know how much you love them!

Day 94

"We all dance to the beat of a different drum. Stop caring about being right all the time. There are few absolute ‘rights’ and ‘wrongs’ in the world. What’s right for you may be wrong for me, and vice versa. Live the way that is right for YOU!"

When it comes to life choices/opinions, not much is worth being right about. Step back from arguments with others. When you feel anger rising up and you want to yell that nasty cutting remark on tip of your tongue (yep that is me.. i cut with my tongue), just close your mouth and walk away. Let your mind calm down. You don’t have to be right or win an argument. Sometimes walking away is the best thing you can do. Ok, let's face it. .it is always the right thing to do. No good ever comes out of discussing things when you are mad. Instead of opening your mouth to get the last word or even a word in, open your mind to new ideas and opinions. Don’t just concentrate on what others are doing, spend time figuring out why they are doing what they’re doing. There is a whole world of possibilities out there. You just have to look for them sometimes ;)

day 93

"Always make sure your loved ones know you love them even in times of conflict. Make time for friends and family. Don’t break your promises to them. Always be supportive and love them inspite of their flaws! ♥ you guys!"

really this speaks for itself, but even if you do not like someone at the moment or are angry at them. Still let them know you love them. My fave line is "I love you but you are really making me mad and i really do not like you at the moment" Because you are not always going to get along. You are not always going to like them or their actions. Remember who they are and your love for them. Help them through times of strife and enjoy the happy times. Without conflict and grief, we do not appreciate the calmness and happy. You never know when you will get the chance to tell someone how you feel, so do not waste a minute. Before you hang up the phone, say goodbye/night, tell them you love them. Make sure the people who matter know! It will make them smile :)

Day 92

"Never give up. Face each new challenge with the attitude that it will bring you one step closer to your goal. You will never fail, as long as you keep trying and never give up!"

Focus on what you want, learn the required skills, make a plan to succeed and take action. We are always happiest while pursuing something of value to us. Be persistent. Do not give up because it is hard. Figure out a way to make it happen. Use that brain that you have. Sure it may not be fun, when it is hard. By you definitely get an amazing feeling when you accomplish that goal. I will never forget when I fixed the washer myself. I was so darn proud. It was hard, it was beyond my skill set. But I did it! I pushed myself and did it. Even when I am running/working out, I constantly push myself beyond my limits. If it hurts or I think " i cannot" I push myself to run just a tad bit more.. to do just one more push up. And you know what? When I am done, I feel good. I feel good that I pushed past my limitations and proved that I could do it!

Push yourself today and do not accept defeat! Know that you can push through anything you set your mind to!