Day 36

Day 36

My battery charging connection to my mac is fried and i am waiting on an external battery charger.. so not much time for blogging.

My crush on CK has increased dramatically.. He is all wrong for me in theory.. 3 kids, going through a nasty divorce, in law enforcement.. but he is so familiar, so comfortable, he is funny and unbelievably HOT... the sexual tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife when we are in the same room. We send flirty texts,in between seeing each other. If we ever kiss.. wow at the sparks that would be had and I am not sure if we could stop things at just a kiss. It is nice having someone know me since middle school. Know my friends, know my family, where i came from without having to explain it all. But is this why i am attracted? I would like to think it is apart.. But really we both have had crushes on each other since 6th grade.. that is crazy. Crazy we both have had crushes and neither acted on it. Crazy we grew up with the same friends went in different directions (completely different direction) yet still coincided at times and didn't even know it. What will happen? only time will tell. For now I am enjoying this flirting. Crushes are good :)

Day 35

Day 35.. i have been designing logos to use for a baseball cap and a shirt for a friends b-day




I like the blue with 'K's face and body with bat one better than the green.. Now I have to find a place that has the shirt I want with the price I want too. I think almost anywhere will have the baseball cap.. and that actually may be all i do for now.. we will see. I had fun designing them.


My main fridge stopped blowing cold air.. luckily I have a spare.. otherwise I would be really sad right now.

I am going to do my best to get up in the a.m. and do at least yoga... i think it might help me. I also want to go get DD.. but alas I will not as that costs money :(

Day 34

Day 34

Yeah yeah i know I am a slacker, but I have been super busy and blogging as not been high on the priority list.

I am in dating hell. People wonder why it is so easy to go back to an ex.. and i am not sure why. I see it clearly. You know their faults, you know what annoys you about them, they know the same about you. You have chemistry, you get along most of the time. And there are always unresolved feelings. And the prospect of dating the ex, looks better, as you go out with people who are great people.. just not a match for you. Al and I have decided that I need an ex Military boy or a country boy.. which is typically who I go for. But definitely not metrosexuals and definitely not guys who do not have bigger balls than me.. and i know that sounds funny but think about it. I am a very strong personality and if you are afraid to pick up the phone or just cannot find 15 mins out of your day to call me and talk to me so we can have a real conversation, than you are not the guy for me.
Texting is not a form of communication. Texting should be used as a "Hey i am running late"; "hey do you want to go out later"; "Hey are you free to talk";
NOT "what are you lifes dreams"; "what form of communication do you like better?" When google voice, as it is counting my characters, says "really?" instead of the # count.. you know that should have been discussed via the phone, email or in person.

People texting is not the newest greatest form of communication.. noooo in fact we are digressing. People do not know how to spell, or form sentences or even use the correct punctuation. It is sad really. We are really getting dumber as a society. I am guilty as well. I am not saying I am not. I am just saying, when starting a new relationship (friends, work or romantic) texting should not be the main form of communication.

So as i am dating, as much as I wanted to kill grumpy in the end.. really he is a good guy and we mesh well together.. when he is in the relationship.. but his issue is.. he is easily distracted and his friends will always come first. Sad.. so maybe one day. Prince charming will come along and knock on my door until then.. i will have fun and keep remembering what makes me... me.... and what makes me happy. That way, when my prince who is happy with himself comes along.. it will be a perfect match :)

Day 33

Day 33... i am tired.. and excited... my house is almost done :)

Day 32

Day 32 ~ Grumpy was back in full force.. he stayed out late.. called twice and texted once at 1:17 a.m. wanting to sleep in the spare room.. i didn't hear any of it.. well i did in my sleep.. i dreamed C was calling me and wanting to come over.. alas i woke up and it was Grumpy.. so i finally hear from Grumpy at 11:30 telling me he was on the way to finish painting.. and boy was he grumpy... i hung up because he started yelling.. I ended up getting a call back and a few apologies.. that was really nice. He was super nice tonight so I made dinner as he was "sooooo hungry" whatever, I am making it one way or the other. Poor guy just kept hanging around. I think he volunteered to paint the house so he could be close to me. To be in my face. He is only making it worse on himself. Everytime i get excited or think i want to try again. He does something like last night and this morning that reminds me how much better off I am. I want a man who can afford to take me to dinner. Who wants to hang out with me and treat me nice. Who wants to paint the house because he knows it will make me happy. I want a man who is reliable and has reliable friends. I want so much more than he is willing to provide. Not because he cannot, but because he will not. He will not put forth the effort. It is too hard. He cannot look past the present to see the big picture. It is sad. I want to help, but I cannot help. I am glad we are back to friends. It feels nice to be able to hang out with him again and see balou dog.. I do love that dog!

Time for me to go night night.. the house looks really pretty. I will post pics soon!