Day 32

Day 32 ~ Grumpy was back in full force.. he stayed out late.. called twice and texted once at 1:17 a.m. wanting to sleep in the spare room.. i didn't hear any of it.. well i did in my sleep.. i dreamed C was calling me and wanting to come over.. alas i woke up and it was Grumpy.. so i finally hear from Grumpy at 11:30 telling me he was on the way to finish painting.. and boy was he grumpy... i hung up because he started yelling.. I ended up getting a call back and a few apologies.. that was really nice. He was super nice tonight so I made dinner as he was "sooooo hungry" whatever, I am making it one way or the other. Poor guy just kept hanging around. I think he volunteered to paint the house so he could be close to me. To be in my face. He is only making it worse on himself. Everytime i get excited or think i want to try again. He does something like last night and this morning that reminds me how much better off I am. I want a man who can afford to take me to dinner. Who wants to hang out with me and treat me nice. Who wants to paint the house because he knows it will make me happy. I want a man who is reliable and has reliable friends. I want so much more than he is willing to provide. Not because he cannot, but because he will not. He will not put forth the effort. It is too hard. He cannot look past the present to see the big picture. It is sad. I want to help, but I cannot help. I am glad we are back to friends. It feels nice to be able to hang out with him again and see balou dog.. I do love that dog!

Time for me to go night night.. the house looks really pretty. I will post pics soon!