Mondays

Mondays are always in interesting day. It is always crazy busy which makes things interesting, but then things get added to an already busy day then your boss wonders why cant all of this get done.. hello you have me working at a 200mph pace for like 6 months with the occasional pit stop but for the most part I am exhausted and really have no motivation to work harder than I already am. Really people.. not going to happen..

Plus not feeling up to par either. Working 7 days a week kind of sucks. Even though it could be worse.

I have an over flux of boys and it is kind of stressing me out a bit too. I just want one that I like as much as they like me. Not sure why its always one person likes the other more.. and by more I mean very apparent... but all are nice so its hard. I like it when things fall into my lap when it comes to relationships.. but maybe that hasnt worked so well for me lately so hmmm.. guess I should try for something new

Welcome to my life.. funny I have been getting caught up with some old friends and remembering some fun times.. god I was wild in my younger years.. how did i make it this far and still be alive and not in jail.. Maybe that is why Goober and I were so good together.. we both are good people.. just like to have fun. Funny thing is we have fun together without needing to party. He will end up the old single guy because he will never want to "settle down" grass is always greener on the other side until you wake up one day and realize everyone else has found someone and you are alone.

Is it bad to hold out for my "Mr. Big" The guy that sweeps you off your feet. That electric pulse that goes through you making you weak in your knees.. now Goober and I have that.. maybe he is my "Big" or maybe he was just the one to make me realize my "Big" is out there.

I do know I don't want someone who wants to push my buttons in the bad way, or always wants to pull out my worst.. I want someone who always wants me to be happy and wants to see my best and wants to help me be a better person. I am not settling for less. I want romance and love and my prince on a white horse...

I also realize I think its all about me.. I have always worked on this but its getting bad again... and I know why.. that's the sad part ;(

Good news for those who care.. I have a few guys in the mix.. some I like, some I love, and some well they really don't have a chance..but are soo sweet. One I love we have dated off and on since we were 19 or 20 years ago.. but we are always in different cities but oh how i love him not in love.. just love as in love him as friends. a great guy .. we have some much fun together, so much history but never can manage to date longer than 6 months at a time.. we have never been "in love" just love hanging out and being together.. maybe if we were in the same city things would be different but life had different plans for us.. maybe one day timing will work out.. or maybe he will be one of those great friends I will be able to keep for life..

I have enjoyed catching up with one of my oldest friends. Its funny how someone can go out of your life but you miss them, and when they come back its like they never left makes me smile

ok done for today