Day 19

Today has been a good day. I woke up, went running, washed clothes and relaxed Yesterday was tiring. I have done a lot of reflecting today.

First I have realized, the puppy has gas.. bad smell gas.. he is very gassy.. so maybe.. some of what I blamed on grumpy.. was actually the puppy. It is possible.

Two... Some people say they want advice and want your honest opinion.. but trust me THEY DO NOT.. they only get mad. I'm just saying. do not ask me something unless you want to know the truth, because I will tell you.. It may not be pretty, it may not be what you want to hear, but I promise i will tell you the truth. If you want to know if that dress is pretty and it is not.. i will tell you. if you want to know why you cannot lose weight..i will tell you (you are not exercising and you are not watching what you eat ALL the time.. doing it 1 out of 7 days a week.. doesn't bode well for the "diet"), you want to know why you are single.. oh yeah I will tell you that also.. just ask :) but be very careful that you REALLY want the answer!

Three.. i really like being alone. i enjoy alone time. I love being able to do what i want when i want. I am starting to LOVE my sundays.. and I know I have had them for awhile but I really love waking up by myself, being able to slowly start moving by watching tv. it's grand

Four... my weight loss is directly related to my decreased calories and increase in physical activity.. it's not difficult.. i work hard and i still find time for it. even if its 10 mins.. its still 10 more than i did.. and the no drinking alcohol i am sure is helpful.. hello you drink.. so you eat crappy.. you wake up and feel crappy so you eat crappy.. its easy to add all that up. a one night binger could easily become 1000 calories on just alcohol plus 1600 from McDonalds (late night snack and breakfast).. I will admit I am becoming a little OCD.. (a little like my father.. it's a little scary actually) but it is helping me keep the weight off and I feel fabulous. I have so much energy, I feel sexy, and alive.

Five.. I am a bad ass.. i fixed the wii remotes.. (they wouldn't sync.. took a bit but i finaly go it) so now i get to sit back and relax while watching Bones.. ahhhhh life is good!

Day 18

A is a goddess.. she fixed my migraines with a little acupressure points.. that was the highlight of my week.. that and me hitting the losing 27 lb mark.. I am super freaking proud of myself.. its been hard and a huge dedication but feels really good.

So i had a fabulous night with R friday night with our inaugural wii game night. It was super fun! Then I went and volunteered. I was super excited I walked into Ms. Prestons class.. she makes me happy. I got a nice run in.. the dogs were very good.. and I got an upper body work out in all before going to dinner pizza yummy!


I have been in such a good mood. Its odd. Grumpy keeps texting.. he apparently realizes his mistakes and is truly sorry. Which mistake? the staying out all night, the sleeping in the same room as your ex, the lying, the excessive drunkenness, the laziness, the broken promises, the broke heart, the unfinished projects, the list goes on and on. Buts it is even more comical that he texts once he has some drinks in him... never sober.. then he is super quiet. He is unhappy.. and was supposedly happy with me.. hmmmmmm he has a funny way of showing it. I made the mistake of taking him back, I wont do that again. He said I deserve someone who can provide more than he can. He is right. I need someone who is happy, who follows through, who loves me and treats me like he loves me. Who loves that i love him and wants to spend time with me and will sit up all night talking because we cannot get enough of each other. I have to be in love again with the right person this time. I am happy, so happy and as much as I am not happy about his unhappiness, I am not sad either. It is much better to sit at home happy and alone, than alone and miserable. I no longer have that person who wants to make me miserable. Its nice :)

I think so Mario Bros is in my future.. and that... makes me happy :)

Day 17

Today was a day.. my migraine did not subside oh no.. it got worse.. I luckily have a great best friend who put those little acupuncture needles on certain pressure points and my head trauma has lessened. I cannot express how grateful I am.


I really do not have much to say.. except I am a hot mess!

I lost count so Day 16 :)

Ok so i really have no excuse except that I just do not think to always get on the computer or to blog.. its sad really :(

Ok so I went out with T again.. very very very nice guy, he is smart, funny, cute, listens, is a gentleman, brought me more tulips, purple this time. He is absolutely amazing and i think if we were friends then i would eventually have that spark that i need to feel, but as of now it is not there and I hate that i am not attracted romantically.. what is wrong with me? am I only attracted to the jerks or guys who want to be a good men but just are not. One day I hope to get it right. I hope that I just know, the way everyone says you do.. I mean I loved G, I mean really loved him.. but I always knew I was settling a bit. But he could be just so darn sweet, and so clueless, it was like having a child. I loved seeing him light up when he got something or experienced something new. And the way he loved me when he loved me was amazing. He just didnt love me enough. He couldn't stay that good man. It was too much work for him. I want someone who is a good man without trying so hard, as I am a good woman without having to try too hard. I just want to treat my partner the way i would want to be treated. I do extra stuff for them because I would want that. I tell them if I am coming home or not because I would want the same. I just know the right person will come along at the right time. some where the relationship isn't as hard as it was with G. He made things much more difficult than they needed to be. LIfe is too short to be grumpy all the time. LIfe has been good. I have had an occasional tear here or there when i think about the life I was going to have. But as soon as a tear forms, I smile as I realize the life I avoided. I am in a really good spot. I am happy, I am not looking back and wondering what if. I know my decision was the right one. I see him miserable and I am not. I see he made me unhappy due to him being unhappy. I see how a weight has been lifted. I love him, I always will, but I am glad I have moved on. I am glad to be free and dating, glad to be happy. Life is good.. life is really good.


lol sometimes i just sit and laugh at my dogs.. right now the husky is laying in bed on his side with just a little bit of food that he decided needed to be eaten later.. and is eating it piece by piece while still on his side and while watching the lab mix puppy stare at him with jealousy all while the cat lays with his back to all of this pretending the dogs do not exist... too funny

Ok night night..

Day 15

Lets just pretend its day 15. In my defense it has been a hell of a week. I have played with papi at his new house, had dinner with great friends, saved two lost dogs, cleaned the house, fixed a taillight, and lots more.. I am tired...

Good news my friend C called and I am going to be a bridesmaid in her wedding in New Orleans in September. We have been friends for a LONG time.. since college.. she is special. We have been through lots and lots together. I cannot wait to celebrate her!


My house is a zoo. the two dogs think they are small and have made my bed a mess.. that does not make me happy... silly monsters.. and the poor cat just wants his bed back. I do not think he will be getting it back anytime soon poor kitty cat.

I have no voice I sounds horrible its quite comical

:)

Day 13 and 14

ok so i was going to write yesterday but was coughing too bad to focus. I have been watching Dollhouse... and let me tell you if it were real I would totally sign up . 5 years you will not remember what you do not want too and you get tons of money... it sounds amazing.. an escape from reality. Reality is great for some.. but sometimes i think that it doesnt exist for me. I think I am destined to be alone. Thats ok.. because I am ok with me. and i had a date last night with a great guy who took me on a fantastically planned date. He was funny, he said the right things. He was nervous, and already has talked about me to his friends. I was his dream date. But that dream girl is fabulous on the surface.. will he like the girl underneath?

I love the fact that my cat is laying under the laptop as i type. he doesnt care as long as hes laying on my lap.. spoiled spoiled spoiled

tonight i spoiled myself.. i had pizza and crunch bars :) im going to head to bed early so i hopefully will rest up.. ive been fairly lazy today and had a few cat naps I am hoping to be asleep soon naturally worst case nyquill coma here i come :)

night night biatches!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 10, 11, 12

Yeah I sooo forgot to blog.. see a theme here?

so in the past week what has happened.. not too much i feel as if im getting sick.. trying not too though.. ps blogging everyday is work.. a lot of work and since i am talking to no one.. there is really no reason for me to blog everyday. so i need to stop feeling so guilty for not sharing my life with no one... that is just silly


So I have a date tomorrow night. A very nice guy.. who planned the who afternoon.. who knew that could happen? not me that is for sure. He even called to see how i was feeling.. I thought that was super nice :)

I am ready for a nice guy... i am tired of dating assholes.. Assholes always seem so fun, but then the fun ends when the assholeness shows itself. then im so wrapped up I am like a cracked out crackhead and just want more.. its sick.. i hope that i have outgrown that needs for crack.. lol oy i am comparing love to crack.. That is just fabulous

Now on that note.. i am going to take some more Nyquill and put myself in a Nyquill coma

night night

Day 8 and 9

I totally didn't blog yesterday.. well it was hard.. it was my first day back to work, and then i came home walked the dogs, ran to Papi's made fun of D, Came home to meet JS and realized i forgot my scarf and had to go back to Papi's to get it.. it was a nice adventure. but it was a very busy and productive day.. i was tired and really didn't need to be awake as long as i was but i made it through and i'm better for it

so that brings us to today, where Papi and I go and wash my car in the car wash as the end of a fairly good day. My clients were semi ok.. it was fabulous to talk to two of them.. they both make me smile.


one of my friends who hurt his knee skiing last year.. broke his hand skiing this year.. he apparently has not learned his lesson.

so really i am boring today too.. i have a feeling i may have a lot more boring days than i will exciting fun times..

im going to sleep so i can work out in the am :) YAY me!

Ta ta

Day 7

Day 7... last day of vacation before i go back to work.. i love my job but i really do not want to work. i want to be a kept wife.. i would totally stay home. but back to work tomorrow and back to busting my butt :) I am trying online dating.. its quite interesting. tons of guys just looking to hook up.. which is great but well that is not me.. there is one guy who is super nice and funny and cute.. i could totally see at least a first date with him.

i have funny animals that play and fight and keep me laughing. the oldest cat is the ruler of the land. Everyone including me.

I am excited fro 2011. So many things are going to happen. as for today.. nothing happened.. i was a lazy lazy person. :)
But I did blog :)

Day 6

Hello, 2011.. good bye 2010... I am soready to start a new year afresh. So last night was fabulous.

So my friend R is a really good person and does a lot more volunteering then I could ever do. She asked me to be her date for the NYE gala.... free dinner, free drinks, dancing, fireworks along the river all at a downtown hotel on the river.. OMG it was fabulous.. great people.. great food, themed rooms (moulin rouge, miami clubesque)fireworks, and champagne toast.. it was an amazing night.. the time flew by.

Then we went to the executive brunch on game day and the game.. goodness i will be glad if i never hear another cowbell again. Though those fans were amazing and soo nice.. It was fun to root for them and see them win! GO STATE!


I am so thankful for my amazing friends and family.... I am truly blessed and I know how much of a lucky girl I am :)