Day 68

"Accept others for who they are. Don’t put limitations on those you love. Even though you may not always like the actions of your loved ones, continue to love them. They may need the extra love to turn things around ♥ ♥ ♥"

If you cannot accept others for who they are.. how can you expect anyone to accept you for you????

Think about that one!

Day 67

"Don’t try to be someone that you’re not. Determine who you are in the inside – your own personal likes and dislikes. Be confident in who you are. Do the best you can and don’t second guess yourself."

Trying to be someone you are not, does no good for anyone especially you. You will never be happy trying to be someone you are not. But you will be happy when you realize who you are and what you want out of life. Take some time.. stay single, go on dates by yourself. Learn to love you, imperfections and all. No one is perfect. We can strive for that, but that is exhausting. Love you for you. Do not settle for anyone who does not love you for you, and always realize when you are not being the best you, you can be. Wow that is a lot of "yous:" but without loving yourself.. how can you expect anyone else to love you?

So today.. be true to you and trust your instincts!

Day 66

"Need a life today? Play with a child. Their giggles will make you smile and warm your heart. You will also make their day for giving them attention! So it is a win - win!"

A child's laughter will light up a room. It can make the darkest day bright. It is innocent and happy. No fake laughing, because they think they should. They laugh a real laugh and many at a time. The two girls I babysit regularly E and S make me soooooo happy. I can have a horrible day, then go see them and all is better. Their hugs, their kisses, their I love you so muches, They are the best snuggle bunnies. And their laughter. Oh their sweet sweet giggles. Those giggles could warm an iceberg to melt. So if you are feeling down. Take the time to play with your kids, or find a friend with kids. The kids LOVE the attention. Last night E not only told me I looked 23 (love that kid) but she also said "Miss J I love you so much. You make me happy. I love that you sit and talk with me and play games with me and well just love me." I love that she knows this. Anytime I say something like " You think I love you" I get told " I know you do" I love that I can joke with them and they still know I love them more than the moon and stars. I am lucky their mom loves me enough to let me have this time with them. Kids love attention just like adults do. We adults need to take time with them. They will be adults soon enough and unless they learn how from us. They will flounder. People call me Mary Poppins, but I think all it is, is that I treat their kids like people, not second class citizens. I talk with them, play with them feed them and love them. Because each child has so much to offer the world. Sometimes we jsut need to stop and pay attention to them

So moral for today. Feel sad, blue or just not yourself? Make a child laugh for just 10 mins and your entire day will change

Happy Hump day!

Day 65

"The desire for change shows up in your body as well as your thoughts. Pay attention to it and go with it. Sometimes change is exactly what you need to become a better you!"

You desire change before you even realize you desire it. I knew that I wanted to end things with Grumpy way before I took action. I knew I wanted to lose weight, way before I took action. I knew i wanted to run a 5k way before I took action. The list goes on, but the fact that I knew in all of these cases that I wanted to make a change, but was just too lazy to make the change. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy. I was too lazy to clean the house, too lazy to break off a bad relationship, too l lazy to work out, too lazy to date outside my little area, too lazy to eat better.. see the list keeps going. So once I realized i was just being a lazy terd.. things got easier.. I let the change happen. There was no bad breakup.. it just came and went. I did not have to work too hard to make it a daily habit to work out, It came easy not drink alcohol, i just chose not too, fruit instead of fries? now that one was hard.. but some days I win that battle. SOME DAYS!

so moral of today's thought. Listen to yourself. Let yourself guide you to who you need to be. If you need to stop doing something to be a better person, do it. What are you waiting for? We only get one shot at this life. Minus well live it up and be all that you can be and more! You never know until you try and if it comes easy.. it usually is too good to be true.. Work hard and enjoy the results. You will appreciate them more

Ciao

Day 64

"Making real, lasting change is like plowing a path. The more you use the new path, the easier it gets. So make that change and do not give up! Hard work does pay off eventually :)"

This speaks volumes to me. Every day I have a choice. I can continue on this new very difficult path i am on, or i can revert back to my old self. This new path (well not so new now) but new path began over a year ago. I stopped drinking, I started working out and I started watching what I ate. This is by no means a "diet" I made a lifestyle change and lost over 40 pounds and am sooo fit!. Now was this hard. HELL YEAH it was. Not only do you have your own self telling you, that you can take a day off from working out.. but you have so called friends who want you to drink, or insist you try their yummy super fattening cake that you have no desire to eat or to "just have one beer. It won't kill you. Do you really need to work out today? You look fine." No i do not need your food/drinks and yes I need to work out.

Any change you make even small will be difficult. I have always been one up for a challenge so this past year, though extremely difficult, the results are amazing and I am so happy to know that I can do anything I set my mind too. I have changed myself physically and emotionally. I am a happy girl through me. I no longer rely on others to make me happy, I no longer feel that I deserve something that someone else has. I am happy with the cards that were dealt to me. Some days i do wish I had someone to share my life with, as it is fairly awesome, but I do not dwell on that. That person will come along at the right moment. It must be the right moment for us both.

So get out there make your change.. whatever it may be and do not give up when the going gets tough, push through and remember only YOU can make YOU whole and happy!

Good Luck!

Day 63

Today I took a quote from Marilyn Monroe with a little added bonus from moi :)

'“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
I hope everyone will be the best version of YOURSELVES today! Happy Friday!'


No matter who you are you should always strive to be the best version of you! I may be all giggly and loud one day because i am ridiculously happy about something. But that is me. I am loud, loving, giggly, overbearing at times, moody at times, ridiculously in love at times, happy most days, sad sometimes, always working to improve myself. Every day is a new day to be a better version of me. I am imperfect and sometimes obsessed with writing, but I have never in my life been accused of being boring. I love life, I love the experiences it brings.. the good and the bad. The constant battle of what I want to do and what I should do. The always constant move of life and the roller coaster it is. Ahhh roller coasters.. i miss riding on those. I cannot wait for the fair. I hope someone will go with me.. oh see and I am random.. I have random thoughts that fill random spaces. I am a hot mess and I love it. I love that my life is not boring and I constant challenge myself. I love that my friends love my thoughts for the day, whether they are my own or borrowed from someone else. I love that people love me for the hot mess I am. YAY for having good parents that raised me to be the hot mess I am :) I also added later today.. bc it was fitting

"I ♥ pictures, because they never change even when the people in them do! You can always look back and remember when :) That makes me smile!"

That says it all for itself :)

Day 62

Someone told me I needed to start writing about my thoughts of the day

Todays is: Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

I may be the girl that you do not always see get what you see, but I will always tell you the truth
I am one who would rather ask forgiveness than permission, though in relationship I am all about the communication. I think a key element of why the last relationship didnt work is he thought I was his mom. That he had to hide things. I never want anyone to feel like they cannot tell me something about them. It is funny, I am the one everyone comes to with their secrets. Everyone but the person who said he loved me the most. Kinda sad but so grateful I had the lessons I did for the relationship. I think everyone takes things away. I remember fireman.. goodness 13 years old and jealous jealous jealous.. why be jealous? That is silly just be happy with you and all else will fall into place.
Communication is key. to an relationship
You cannot make someone love you or their self
I love who I am.. if you do not love me for my faults and all..you can leave
I am silly I am loveable I am sometimes moody but I always mean well
Life is good!

Also had a fun night with J. I cannot wait for her little bundle of joy to get here. I love all the laughs we share. She is one amazing lady!


Every exciting weekend. D will be in town and the goonies is playing under the bridge. YAY super excited

Day 61

Wow a good first date was had last night. Nothing fancy just two people sitting at an outdoor bar talking. We has so much in common and just kept talking.. 3 hours later we only stopped talking due to we both had other commitments. Cannot wait to see if this progresses.

I also have a few more in the pipeline.. I swear it is feast or famine.. but hey at least I am happy.... no matter what life throws my way :)

Day 60

I have had such an emotional week. Last week I left for vacation to one of my favorite places in the world New Orleans, LA. Now some people have no love for this amazing city. They do not appreciate how versatile the city is, all of the secrets the city keeps and the amazing history that lies in it's buildings and streets. But me I LOVE IT! i could stay lost in the streets of the French Qtr for days, I could sit along the river and paint different scenes. I adore this city.

During the day, the city slowly wakes up. I get up early, do my normal work out, then head out to walk the French Quarter. I love the French Quarter first thing in the morning, when the streets are like a ghost town and still filled with the stench of pee and booze. When you can see the random person who is still awake from the previous nights festivities and look like they have been rode hard and put up wet. The colors of the buildings become brighter as the sun bounces off them. No building is the same. Some are older, some are brighter, some are newer, some are in desperate need of repairs, some just were repaired. The city has this magical feel. As the day moves on, the streets are cleaned, people fill the streets and sidewalks. The bustle is that of New york city. Tons of people everywhere. The food is amazing. But nothing beats the night time craze that is bourbon street. So many people that you cannot even move some nights. People pushing others, falling down from their debauchery activities. HMMMMM i do love NOLA!

So as i head to one of my fave cities. I stopped to see my friend EG. He is a sweet man who is someone I have always compared others too. I thought our meeting would go much differently. He has been emailing for a few months and was really excited for me to come see him. Or so i thought. But I get there and did not get the throw me against the wall and kiss me reaction I had dreamed up in my head (my dreams are always so much better than my reality). We had a great morning, we cuddled in his chair and watched a movie. We went to lunch at this yummy place, then we came back home and napped while watching tv. I was curled up in his arms. It was nice, comfy but no passion. I left there and headed to NOLA for my BFF's wedding. Oh the fun that was had.
We did cheesy ghost tours, laughed a lot, played in the french qtr and warehouse district, ate amazing food, pissed off a bridesmaid and almost had to cut her dress (another story for another time, danced danced danced, found "lost" friends, partied with my miami friends, made a new crush (a little Cajun boy.. oh so cute and such a gentleman, watched my BFF get married and danced to the 2nd line down bourbon street. I rode in a horse drawn carriage for the first time and fell back in love with NOLA and all the history and magic the place produces. I can honestly say it was one of the most fun weekends I have ever had and hands down most fun wedding ever.

Lots of memories made this weekend that will last a life time!

Day 59

Need a smile? Look through old photos and enjoy the memories each brings :)


I did that this weekend. it was amazing to be able to look back and remember such fun times. I have amazing friends and each one brings something different to the table. There are those like SB who share every detail of his life, P who is constantly juggling girls and making me giggle, A, C and C who are funny girls and make me laugh daily and have for years. Wow at the years, photos and memories we have made. W who is ridiculously in love and wants everyone else to be too!

so look through those photos and smile :)

Day 58

Today started out perfectly. I woke up, i worked out, I hung out with my kitties on the front porch and watched the sun rise. Came up with my thought for the day:

Watch a sunrise or sunset. Take in the beauty and enjoy the calmness that surrounds you. During the stressful parts of your day, let that calmness sweep over you by closing your eyes and remembering the sunrise/set!

Then came to work. Had an informative but LONG meeting, which set me behind for the day, thought I pushed through. I then got some not so great news, still pushed through, dealt with annoying changes and wanting to not be nice to people, pushed through, was not invited to someone's birthday celebration who i adore.. (neither were others) and felt like I was back in the 2nd grade sitting alone for lunch. I am sure it was not intentionally, just rather not nice to not invite the entire office of 13 people to another persons birthday celebration. I pushed through, until I got in the car, then i cried a little and pushed through that to find the perfect frame for my gift for my friend C. Super excited to get home and put it all together.

I am proud I am smiling right now, because I pushed through today. if you try hard enough, you really can keep other from effecting your mood. Now did I succeed the entire day... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO but i was able to catch it when my mood changed or a bad thought was creeping in and was able to think positively. I am training myself and before long it will just happen naturally! I am glad I constantly strive to be a better person. I hope others can see that and if they cannot, then I do not want them in my life! Life it too shot.. push through the bad and find the good!