My kids saved my life

M kids truly saved my life. Even though me having them put me at risk for breast cancer. If I had not been pregnant and tandem nursing, we never would have caught this lump until it was too late. It feels like dense breast tissue. It moves freely. When doing a breast exam you do not realize it is there. The only way you would tell is if you grabbed the breast, then you can feel it. Even now with it still a good 2 cms at least.   Me being pregnant made it grow fast and brought it to the surface. Without my toddler nursing, I would have never been able to have that breast fully drained.  Without his help, we never would have realized only the top felt engorged and maybe we need to get this checked.  These kids, saved my life.

On top of that, had I gotten cancer and not have had them, I may not be fighting as hard to stay here. I wouldn't have two sweet, smiling faces to fight for. I may have tried to do this alternatively instead of treating it so aggressive. I definitely would be in a dark place. Dark places are no good. Dark places cause you to want to wither away. I like the light and kids help you find your light!

 I have my kids and my nieces watching me. I want to be a good example for them. I want to show them in the face of adversity, you can stand your ground. You can do so gracefully, with love, acceptance, determination and fortitude! I want to show them, you choose your attitude. That not one, thing defines them, but many define them.  Yes I have cancer, but that is not who I am, I am made of up so many more parts than that. I want to smile every day, because it makes me happy!  i do not want to cry, that makes me sad. I choose to smile, I choose to look at the bright side, the optimistic side.  I choose to dance even in the rain! Living a good happy life is hard! But it makes it easier when you know four little sponges are soaking up everything you do and say. i want to be strong for them, yet show them people need to break down at times. They light up my life with such joy!  Seeing my toddlers tenacity, pushes me to push harder. My kids and my nieces truly make me a better person! For them I fight. For them I smile. For them i will dance in the rain! I will dance and dance and dance!  They saved my life and will continue saving it over and over again! Best little life savers ever!  i do so love them oh so very much!  Soooo soooo much! They will have a mama watch them grow. I will see what tiny humans I am able to help raise. I would do so much for them! For them i fight!

Cheers to a good fight and my sweet life savers!

Love
Jamie
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