Day 61-2012. Drama queen

Tonight I attended a crushes birthday dinner. Now this is strictly a crush. I do not at all think he likes me more than friends but he is an amazing person has done so much. He is a good boy but has a bad boy side and is HOT So we went out for his birthday. Once again we met some of his friends who just are very cliquish and who just soo not display common pleasantries or warm fuzzies like most people do. It's funny because those types of people make me giggle and make me want to make them talk to me. One girl sat there with a sour puss face pouting like she lost her best friend or hated everyone at the table. Hahahahahahahagaahaha super funny. I kept smiling at her. I never want to be that girl. I want to be the girl that when people say my name they say". She is genuinely a nice happy girl". That is my goal. I am my own worst enemy some days. Some days my drama queen side emerges and I start to slip into my mean girl drama queen self. Only for a small time frame but she still emerges. I cannot wait until the day she stays sequestered and does not appear at all. One can dream right?