Day 72

"Do not look for the approval from others. Give yourself approval and allow yourself to be who you want to be. Because you are pretty fabulous!"

This speaks volumes to me. For years I wanted what others had, I wanted to be someone else, I looked for approval from friends, from boys from my parents. I even looked at boys for what they could offer me instead of what I could offer them. I wanted the name brand jeans and not hand me downs. I wanted the boy with the cool truck. I thought I deserved these things, the world owed me. Since I was always wanting more, I never stopped to be happy with what I had or who was in my life. When I finally stopped and looked around, I realized I am fairly awesome.. I have an awesome house that is in a constant state of chaos (like me), I have awesome but crazy and fun and loving animals, I have amazingly awesome friends who keep me on my toes but are always there, I have me who is always trying to better herself and learn new things. I am a happy girl and I really do love my life. It feels amazing to feel this way. It took me until my 30's to be happy with me. To love who i am.. good and bad. I just wish I had learned this sooner.

So love you for you, and if you do not love the you,, that you are.. then do something to change it. bad attitude (that is me) then change it.. it is hard.. it is work.. it is constantly having to realize :oh crap i shouldn't have said that" or " I need to smile.. smile dammit.. i know you do not like her but SMILE" :) that is the hardest. Getting my point? To change takes work.. but if you are not happy with you.. then do it.. do what you need to in order to be the best you, so you can be proud of who you are and where you are in life

Have a happy day!