Upswing

I was told I would have one yucky week after chemo then two normal weeks. I am on that upswing of normal.  I am not poopy, my body is aching to nurse my little one, and I just feel normal. I am a normal girl who is wig shopping. That statement makes me giggle. But it is true. I know my hair should start falling out soon, so I am getting a few wigs to have in case I want to wear them. I will save all for halloween outfits as I love being someone new.

I am so extremely humbled by so much outreach. It is amazing how many people I have touched at some point in my life!  Makes me feel like I have had a purpose. I feel like I  continue with that purpose as I fight this battle to get better!  I have had people, who know how "crunchy" I am, ask me why i am going with traditional treatment instead of alternative. Quite simple, even though I really really detest doing chemo and do not want to go through the surgery due to time away from my kids, I am too advanced (stage 3) to try and see if alternative treatments will work. I have to think of my kids. If I was single or it was just B and I, the decision may be different, but at this moment in my life, I have to do everything i can to be here for my kids. I may not do the radiation after chemo, but for now I will continue with this chemo path, to eviscerate this tumor and the cells that have escaped the breast area before they evade another space inside me. I am also using alternative methods to help fight this, alongside the chemo, but for now the chemo has got to happen. It saddens me to not nurse my kids, but it saddens me more, to think i will not be there for them growing up. So chemo it is and at the moment I am on an upswing which makes me super super happy!

Much love to you all!

Love Jamie

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