First day of chemo

I had my first chemo treatment. It was a very long day.  We woke up via an alarm which we haven't done in 2.6 years. We somehow managed to make it by 8:08 so only 8 mins late.

Saying goodbye to the kids knowing I would never ever nurse them again was hard. Jax nursed in bed but refused to again before we parted. I thankfully caught a sweet pic of them tandem nursing and then got a pic of my last nursing session ever with the baby 

We left with me in tears, grieving the loss of me feeding my babies and for me having to leave Cass for the first Time ALL day long knowing he had to take a bottle. Thank goodness for my sister. She got him to take 15oz over the day which was exactly what he needed! 

So we arrived at the cancer center. I got my port used for the first time. A nice needle gets put in they take some blood then seal it for the next use. Today I didn't have to see the dr so we got called back to infusion.  We took my weight, Height, answered questions then sat and waited. It was a little after 10:30 before we finally got the meds. Today was super long because they wanted to make sure I didn't have a reaction. I got lots of nausea meds, steroid and Benadryl all before we started. I also got to pump my last bit of fresh milk since we had such a long wait! 

Everyone was super nice and helpful! The nurses got a good laugh at my husband and I laughing together so much. It was nice to have some one on one time with him even if it was due to my chemo. 

So they would give me a drug then wait 30/60 mins to see if I reacted. They said next Visit will be cut in half.  They fed me lunch though next time I'll bring my own. And delivered tea and coffee at tea Time with cookies that I refused. I don't need sugar feeding this cancer!  I thankfully didn't react to anything and the Nausea meds they have given me are working great! I don't even need to take the ones they sent home with me. 

We got some at 6 and ran through to grab dinner on the way home. I have never been so excited to see my kids!  I hate being away from them for that long!

Little bit took over 15,oz of bottled breast milk.  Poor kid was so excited to see me just to find out he couldn't nurse :-( at least the toddler understood why.   We got home and of course I am in tears. I made him a bottle of half freshly pumped milk and half formula. He took an ounce from me then 3 more from daddy! We got in bed snuggled and were out after a little butt tapping as he tried to root for me. 

I woke around 1 waiting to see if he woke and he did. Around 2:30. He took a formula only bottle like a champ! 3 ounces downed like he was sucking on a boob and the oldest never woke to nurse just rolled over to snuggle. But ouch my boobs!  They hurt so badly and need to be expressed. Definitely ready for the morning as I can't move at the moment

Though I wouldn't change a thing! Chemo went well, the boys are adjusting and I get lots of snuggles! Love my life and my little snuggle monsters!

Here's to hoping I keep reacting well to chemo and am not too tired tomorrow. At least today wasn't a horrible day! It was rather good!  This party got started and I'm on my way to being cancer free!  Can't ask for more than that!