Last night of nursing before chemo

Today I got the call that chemo starts tomorrow. I cried a lot. Then decided it was topless day in our house and that the boys could nurse all they wanted. They did too!  The toddler nursed and nursed. The baby did his normal thing.  I know they will be fine and that i would rather watch them grow then nurse them but I'm still grieving that part. So today we nursed all day and tonight I'm still topless as they can nurse all they want.

I'm lucky I was able to capture the last time I got to nurse them both to sleep!  Not many moms get that and I did! So as sad as I am.  I am also glad to have the moments captured so I can look back and smile! Smile for the long journey I had with nursing and how much joy it brought our family!

Then I got to enjoy snuggles!!'

Here's to getting the chemo party starts so that we can get back to our lives!

Ps last tandem feed that morning. They even held hands.  Be still my heart be still