Day 112-2012 Bitter Sweet

Wow. So much has happened. Two worlds went into chaos a little over a week ago. I feel like 10 years went into a weekend. Such strong feelings and an amazing connection. It's what people wait a life time for. Silly distance and obligations throw in a few challenges. Hopefully nothing good communication and a little hard work cannot overcome.
Waking up with those strong arms around me, that smell that intoxicates me, those kisses that I cannot get enough of. I want to just fade into him. The way I feel when that smirk comes across his face when he's teasing me or when something excites him. How he enjoys telling me no just to make it up to me later with some surprise. Him seeing a side of me that I didn't even know existed. Me cuddle? What? CrAzy!!!! But true. I'm like a cat. I want attention when I want it and when he's around I crave it. I crave his touches, his smell, i cannot stop staring. My fifty, my beautiful Vin Hitler lol (inside joke So sorry), sweet stubborn, Oh so stubborn man who frustrates me, excites me, thrills me all at once. The one that stirs feelings I thought were lost. The one that makes me realize what I am missing. No clue why he popped back up in my life. I'd like to think it is kismet and not another lesson. I'm so tired of life's lessons. I'm ready for my life that includes him. If relocation needs to happen. I'll do it. I'm willing to work harder than I ever have. As not many people make me happier than I already am and make me want to spend time with them. Somethings never change. I still cry when he leaves. I always hated leaving him. And now I hate him leaving me. At least he left his shirt, guess someone didn't want me forgetting him, though it's a symbol of a promise he'll be back for it, at least I hope it is. It will be a month before we can see each other again. Lots of time to think and lots of things may change. At least this was one of the better birthday weekends I have had in a really long time. I was able to reconnect with a lost love. The one who I have no secrets from, then one who I can be the hot mess that I am and know thats when he thinks I'm the cutest! (i have the texts as proof) hehehe So thankful fate threw us together, both having vacations planned with no plans, even if it ends up being just another chapter in our book. Our book is definitely not a boring read. I cannot wait to write it all down, the laughs, the tears, the fights, the making up! Definitely a best seller.
So to wrap this randomness up, I had an amazing birthday with amazing friends. Good food And I got to see someone who knows me better than me most days and loves me in spite of me everyday.
Best birthday present this girl could've asked for!
Bitter sweet. Bitter bitter sweet. Cannot wait to see what the future holds, one day at a time!