Day 96 -2012 Pretty Girl

I have always been a pretty girl.  From the time I was baby until even now, I am told I am pretty.  But the older I get the less pretty I feel.  Scares have forms, zits have appeared and left marks that no longer fade, pores have enlarged. My body has changed and it takes a lot more work to keep something that used to just be there.  Now that my looks are fading, my personality is becoming more and more important.  Makes you look at your self harder.  Criticize something that I used to let go.  I am my own worst critic. I feel like the older I get, my dream of a fairy tale ending for my life will not happen.  I will never be the pretty young bride, young mom or young anything. As each year passes, I am 'old".  I am that person I never thought I would be.  I never imagined I would be my age, even 5 years ago. I still feel 22, I still see myself as 22, I sometimes forget, I am not 22...... until I look in the mirror, then I remember, I am not 22.  Sad but true. So now, I have to change my way of thinking and remember, it is about my personality and if I shine that way, I will always be a pretty girl!