Day 88 - 2012 Drained

Wow today is a day week month year, years of lies, half truths and denials.  Maybe it is just getting more predominant as the norm. Some I think are told to keep others feelings from being hurt, though the lies hurt.  Some think they are staying out of trouble, when really those being lied too have less and less faith in them. It makes it hard for me to be nice, to take the higher road, to not call them out, to turn the other cheek, to treat them better than they treat me.  It is hard. I am drained. I feel like I have a fake smile plastered on my face at all times. Once I am home, I do not want to be nice, to fake a smile, to really do anything.  I am drained. It is rather sad.  I feel like someone has taken a plug and pulled it out of me and all of my energy just is draining away.  It is like I can see it swirl around before draining into the ground. Hopefully this feeling will pass soon!