Murphy's law is an adage that is typically stated as: "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong".
If I get excited about something.. bam.. that thing blows up, doesn't happen as planned or at all.
If I try to let go and do the right thing.. I can't.. the thing just holds on. (happening today)
If I am sad, then usually something happens to make me happy. (So yes it can happen in the opposite direction.)
I seem to always be pulling myself up from disappointments, and I do not really celebrate the wins the way I should. I am becoming indifferent on many subjects and with many people. Some say to become indifferent is to lose your humanity. In a way maybe I am. I am becoming numb to a lot of things. It makes me a little sad, if I let myself think about it. So I do not, I push away my thoughts. When people give me the side head tilt and "awe.. you can still have kids.. you can still get married." ok.. but what if that is not what I want? Why do I have to follow your plan or feel disappointed when I do not want that or for even thinking I may not want it. Why do people not follow through with what they say they will.? Why should I believe them when they say they will? Why am I the bitch when I do not give them the attention they so want. I am courteous. It may not be over the top southern belle, bless your heart you are just the cutest thing.. but I am courteous and polite (most of the time). I wish people would mind their own business. 'Do unto others' , anyone?
I am ready for this wave of my life to pass, as I am literally drained. Work is stressful, home is stressful.. well not tonight.. tonight the house is clean.. i will be veggie and doing laundry and having some friends come by to visit :) See upside to a rough couple of weeks.. YAY, I love it when I see that... even if it took me writing for the light bulb to go off! BWHAHA I defy you Murphy's law
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