Day 20 - 2012

Today I am all about fitness and being healthy!  I am so tired of girls coming up to me with cookies, candies and whatever other bad food they can put in their mouths saying "I wish I was skinny"  No you do not, well maybe you wish it, but you have no desire to make it happen.   It is one thing to eat a cookie.. a piece of candy a small slice of cake, IFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF  you are also working out and eating healthy.  French Fries, though they taste amazing, are not healthy.   It is another to always "wish" and never "do".  You did not get fat by accident. It happened over the years, from eating yummy tasting BAD for you food and not exercising.  That is right by being a gluttonous lazy pig you got fat.  Now you have two choices.. bitch and complain and do nothing but stay on your gluttonous course and post quotes about how being fat is being happy.  Or you can make a lifestyle change, that is right a "lifestyle change", not a diet.. change, say it with me "lifestyle change".  You will keep off the weight if you make a lifestyle change, you will not keep it off if you just diet.   I laugh at these people who think dieting for a few months will keep their weight off even if they stop the diet and revert back to their bad eating and not exercising habits. It is not easy, it is work, that is why they call it a 'work out', not an 'easy out'.   it takes dedication and determination.  

As I was doing my morning pinterest while getting ready this am.  I came acorss a pin.. and had issues pinning it.. and then lost it L  it said soemthing like “ don’t say you want to be skinny to me, when you have a cookie in your mouth:”  Hahahaha I wanted to pin it very badly ( I am evil yes I know this) as I am really tired of the haters when I work effing hard to keep this body in shape.  I am tired of haters and people who say " I just can't"  You can.. you just chose not too.  There is a difference.

I guess the reason why it strikes a nerve is that, I am proof it works.  I started out in June 2010 at 175 lbs.  By  March 13, 2011 I hit my goal weight of 135 lbs.  I was so proud of myself.  It took 9 months of hard work, lots  of sweating, lots of tears, lots of pushing myself past points of comfort, lots of sore days.  I still feel like I have not worked out enough if I am not sore somewhere on a daily basis.  It is now Jan 2012 and I am happy to say I am still within my goal weight for myself.  Sure I have slipped past that 140 mark only to buckle back to basics. to get back to as of this am 136.  I am happy as long as i sty under 140.   What did I do?  I started with something simple, working out twice a day and no alcohol.  I made myself work out in the morning for at least 25 mins and again in the evening.  In the beginning I chose Pilates, yoga and running.  Once that became easy and I lost 2oish pounds I chose high cardio exercises like running, kickboxing and boxing along with weights.. weights was the key, I was always worried about bulking up, without realizing that weights helps me burn more calories when I am doing nothing.  This helped get more weight off.  I also started calories counting.  I use loseit.com and their app which works FABULOUSLY. I can track EVERY thing that goes in my mouth and all my exercises down to cleaning the house ( yes that is a work out too).  Once I realized I was eating WAYYY more than I needed too, the rest of the weight just fell off.  So on March 2011 I hit my goal weight, but not size.  When I started this venture I was wearing most days size12 pants and a 10 or large/XL dress.  Today I am in size 4 pants and 2/4 or small dresses.  CRAZY!!!  But I am constantly toning my body. I feel healthy, I look healthy and I get tons of compliments.  I feel like I am 22 again.  I am the same size I was without the bloatiness I once carried due to too much alcohol consumption.  

So when you think you cannot do something.  Remember you can!  You are your own worst enemy.  Tell that lazy bitch inside you to go back to sleep so you can work her out of you!  I still constantly fight with mine, but I also win the battle daily and that is all that matters!