So technically I wrote two blog posts yesterday so this should probably be Day 10.2 but since i am only 2 days behind (much better than last year) I figured saying today was day 11 wasn't tooooo far of a stretch
Today is Friday the 13th. I love this day.. It does not happen often. People are afraid of it. I think 13 is a lucky number not a bad one. The sun is shining. .it is cold but the sun is out. The day is fresh and anything could happen. I get to go see friends play tonight, so that makes me happy. I am still living even without FB YAY me! Only one person so far has emailed me to say " what the heck? Where are you on FB?" LOL so at least I am kind of missed. Tough some realized
I had to laugh at myself. I talk out loud. I do not care if others are around. It is something I do. I do it at home, work, out in public, in a car.. whatever. I think out loud, that is how i think. I cannot help it. I try to control it, but it is just another thing to control. I think sometimes that it isn't about growing up as much as just learning how to act appropriately in public. I still struggle with this. I thought I had learned, but I started to slip back in my immature ways. I followed the path (sort of) that my parents wanted for me, all except getting married and having kids. I finished high school, I graduated college. I started law school, to drop out and have enormous debt, which stresses me out, but I manage, I bought a house I am doing the things I should. Yet I still do not feel like I am grown. I feel an overwhelming about of stress that on some days suffocates me. Today is one of those days. Even in the course of writing this one post the thought of all the stress is slowly over taking me. Life changes about to happen.. I guess that means I am an adult after all :)
Hope everyone has a great day!
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