Day 156 - 2012 Frenemies

BWHAHAHA, so I saw this and had to use it today.  Lately I have watched people are are supposedly Best friends, talk about each other behind the others back, throw each other under the bus, the list goes on.  I am smart enough to know, if you will do this to someone who is your best friend, then you will definitely do it to me.  I try to sit back and just watch the train wreck happen.  

These same people swear they see life as a half glass full, when in reality they are the half glass empty people.  Now I have my days and everyone knows, I had my 6 months to a year where I was a miserable person to be around.  I kept to myself because I knew I was miserable. I did not pretend to be happy. I was miserable and did not care who knew. I see myself in them, when I was that person.  I see how I brewed negativity.  I made others miserable with my presence.  (hard to admit that one).  But then the time came when my eyes opened and I realized what I had become.  Someone that I did not recognize. Someone who I would not want to be friends with.  I started on this get myself right conquest. 

I thankfully pulled myself out of it  I quit drinking, started working out, and wow did those happy endorphins kick in.  Then I realized that when I vented, it made things worse for me. I relieved the moment over and over and got more angry.  So I had to learn to not share as much, as sharing does not work well for me.  Some friends were proud of me, others did not understand these changes and some down right hated them.   I had friends that stuck by me and some who turned to frenemies.  You know the ones, those who are polite to you, but never let go of who you were in the past and just proceed to talk about you and put you down to others. They think that they are clever and they do fly under the radar for some people.  But I see through them.  I sit, I watch, I wait, I am Switzerland.  I give them no reason to talk about me (though they find reasons).  I am happy and will not let their attitude or perception get me down. I have worked hard to be the person I am.  It is not easy to not let others effect you.  Some days I fail, but oh most days I win.   Plus I look pretty with a smile.  I am thankful oh so thankful to my real friends. They are so full of love and understanding.  They never gave up on me even when I had.  I am also thankful for my frenemies, for they made me treasure my real friends even more and made me realize that quality over quantity is what matters.  

Treasure those real friends, and do not let the frenemies get to you.