Well last night was very interesting.. Grumpy stopped by to give me some of my stuff.. not all still :( but we had a good convo and i got a lot of my chest. it was nice to hear him say he was sorry and felt horrible about everything. It was also nice to hear that wow i did do a lot for him and he finally is realizing what all I did do. I was also proud that when he tried to kiss me i said no. I really didn't have the desire. My attraction is based on memories.. but there wasn't that want to go there again. I think I have finally de-goobered my life :) it does help knowing I did all I could and that he did not try hard enough. I am sure he will find a mediocre girl and lead a mediocre life. I want more than a mediocre life. I want to be in love and loved back in return, i want respect and fun and all the ups and downs that life will bring. I do not fear the down times I embrace them, as you cannot appreciate the ups if you never have downs.
Plus I think my crush is helping ease that transition also. Whoo hoo for a good life
Plus plus plus I get to see that cutie patootie nieces again tomorrow :) That always makes me happy!
Happy Friday Ya'll!
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