Somedays you just need a day. a day to cry, a day to rest, whatever your need is, some days you just need it. Thurs was Thanksgiving and my eldests 3rd birthday. I did too much! We walked the turkey trot, and then i fought him for nap, to then frost his cake i had baked, then cooked some dishes then hosted thanksgiving. I was one tired mama! I had planned for Friday to be lowkey. It was for the most part. Little bit and I hung out in bed most of the day, while Daddy went off playing and Big brother was with grandma. I needed about 7 of those kinds of days.
Monday hit and I heard the news of a friend passing from Pancreatic cancer. That hit me hard. She was an amazing person. Then today, little Kate passed away from cancer. I am heart broken for her parents and siblings.
It seems cancer is everywhere. It is invading every day talk. You mention cancer and no one is surprised anymore, and you still get the sad death sentence face. Treatments are a little better, but still not better. There are not choices unless you fight for them. You are told you will do xyz and not really given the reasons behind it. You have to research on your own, which leads to more questions and am i doing the right thing. Chemo was hard but doable. This surgery scares the bejesus out of me. Mainly on how it will effect my kids. so much has been taken from them in the last 6 months. I hate taking anymore from them. Especially when there is not solid data. All I know is Herceptin is working. I would rather stay on this the rest of my life every 3 weeks, than have my mastectomy at this time. I would rather wait until the kids are older. Surgery with two small kids, doesn't sound fun at all. In a month, I will find out. That makes me sad. Monday was my day to cry. I cried almost all day! My Sweet Dani let me cry on her shoulder. it was rough. Thinking about it makes me tear up. I needed that day. I needed to cry. I still am freaking out but am working through it. That is good. Moving forward is good. But I know some days i am just going to need a day and those days, it is okay and i will take said day!
Thanks for reading my babble!
Have a great one!
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