Day 57

I had a very fun weekend. I enjoyed lots of laughs with some very good friends.

We are always changing and evolving. The person you were yesterday is not the same person you are today. I went to a very lovely babyshower yesterday. But one thing I found humorous was the young girls (25ish) who were whining that they were not married and would be old moms. It was comical to me, as these same ladies are always up for a party or another drink. I think they forget that you cannot do that with kids or you need to find a babysitter. And as much as grandparents want to keep those precious bundles... they do not like being taken advantage of. I may not have gotten married young.. or had kids yet. But if I do at least I had my days of partying. I can close the door on that chapter knowing I lived it to my fullest. I can focus fully on my next chapter without reverting back, because oh is it easy to revert back.

I am going to keep looking forward.. keep moving forward. I am glad I am no longer that same girl that I saw a room full of yesterday. I would not have made a good mom back then. I was too selfish and all about the fun and being a mom is not always fun. Plus learning on my animals and by babysitting for some fabulous moms (and not so fabulous) has helped me realized how i need to be as a mom, if I ever get the chance to be one.