Been awhile

HI All

I am so sorry this has been awhile since I have posted. The Blogger app still is not fixed and it is hard for me to find time to blog without it. May have to switch to another website :(

My surgery was 1/5/17 and I have pretty much healed. I still have some tightness and soreness from nerves that were messed with and tendons not wanting to stretch properly. I am currently back working full time and have managed to sneak in a work out almost every day, sometimes twice a day.

I go back next week for Herceptin, but good news is my body has thrown itself into menopause, so I will not have to take drugs to make that happen!  Thankfully the only real side effect that bothers me is the exhaustion. I can handle that for sure!

I am getting used to the new me, and being flat and fabulous. Sometimes I feel like I am looking in the mirror at a teenage boy and others I own my body. My sweet husband has been really amazing through all of this and making sure I realize he still loves me and is attracted to me. I know it can't be easy for him either but he says it is. He loves me no matter what.  That definitely helps make this easier!  So many husbands leave their wives, so I am thankful he is making an extra effort to make me feel special at a time when i need it the most.

I go back to surgeon on 3/1 to look at scars once more to make sure they have healed the way he would like and they seem to be doing fabulous!

It is odd that i feel like the boobies are still there. When the kids rub or I hit my chest, it feels as if the point of contact is larger than it is, ie i feel like there are still boobies but sadly there are not.

I have gotten used to figuring out which shirts will look best on me and have started whiddling down my current wardrobe and will continue to do so until I only have things that make me  look and feel nice. I am loving the soft tank tops with no shelf bra. Sadly I have tons of nursing tanks and shelf bra tanks that i will have to give away :( very sad because some are basically brand new.

I see pics of myself with no hair and it feels like a lifetime ago, even though it was just a few months. That gives me hope that eventually this will all be a very distant memory.

Sadly enough one of my friends was just diagnosed with breast cancer. Still waiting on pathology, but goodness did i cry. I know she will be fine, they caught it early, but goodness the thought of someone else going through this is just... too.. much...   we need a cure and we need one yesterday. Too many people are being diagnosed daily. I am so thankful for how far we have come and how this is no longer a death sentence but goodness it is scary and just crappy the treatments we have to go through.  But soon this will be a distant memory for her too.

I hope you all have a great weekend!

Love
Jamie
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