Lately I have been feeling this overwhelming love for my husband. I am not sure if it is because of the ever growing fetus or if this just happens in marriage. Either way it is very overwhelming at times. I feel like my heart is just going to explode. Even when I am picking up after him, I still feel that love for him and am thankful I have him to pick up after. This week he has to work out of town. Usually I am the one who like like "go!!!" When he called to tell me, he was very upset with having to leave me. I told him I and the baby would be fine it was just a week. By Sunday I was feeling completely different. I had a complete meltdown, hysterically crying, all because he was leaving earlier than I thought he was going to leave. He placated me but taking me to breakfast but as we kissed and hugged goodbye the tears flowed. Feeling of emptiness and fear ran through me. Fear that something would happen and I would not be able to get to him. Never fear over me, just him. Emptiness of a house that did not have him moving in it, a bed that now had a cat sprawled out in his place, no one there for morning cuddles.
I woke up did my normal routine and honestly slept much better, as I had no one in bed waking me up. Then my phone rang, I heard his voice and started to tear up just like the first time I had heard his voice after many years apart. That sweet, strong, southern voice, that touches my heart on so many levels. I was happy he called to talk to me before he went to sleep and I went to work. I loved hearing his voice and being able to tell him I love him.
This week will go by faster than I will realize it will, but one thing for sure is that absence does make the heart grow fonder. I cannot wait for him to be back in my arms. (wow who knew I would ever say that about anyone!)
Love to All.
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