Day 49

Every time I go back home, I remember all of the things I loved. All that I no longer have. All that I could have had. I never would have known there was an entire other world out there. I would have been content. But that was not the path I chose. I chose the more difficult path, the unknown path, the path that pushed me to the limits and gave me experiences i never would have known otherwise. I have laughed, cried, loved and hated. I have known loneliness and the warmth of being surrounded by friends. I have learned to live on my own and not fall back on family. I have learned to rely on friends. I have learned that friends are the family you choose along your life's path. I have some amazing people in my life. Some who love me no matter what my faults. It has been an amazing journey. Sometimes i feel too complacent where I am now. My instinct tells me to run, move and have more experiences, meet new people. I love who i am. I do not love being stuck in a rut. Parents are so important to mold who you could become. Mine molded me and let me go. They let me flourish and fail. Without failing one cannot succeed. I am grateful to have such amazing parents who loved me enough to let me be my own person. Who didn't hold on tight but let go and let me ride that bike with no training wheels (which resulted in a broken arm) but it was my decision and my choice and my consequences. ALL MINE! I would not trade a day of this crazy life. It is mine! It is how i have become who i am today and I like me :)