Post Chemo #6 update

Hi everyone!

I am still  feeling pretty rough!  It feels as though I am looking  and swimming through a sea of water. I feel very bloated (though I do not  look it per sis), my tummy doesn't like me so much, I am  nauseated, my entire body aches still. I still do not have a fever which is great, but my poor body is like, "Listen woman, first you get pregnant, than you make me spit out a 10lb 5.3 oz baby sideways with no drugs, then you make me start chemo before I have recovered from labor. really? Really, this is how you want to play this?"  so it is winning today. Today I am feeling the exhaustion of this past years abuse on my poor body. Just touching me makes me hurt from my muscles being so tight and sore.  I feel like I need a massive massage that would go on for a half a day. It even is hard to turn my head (and no I don't think I have meningitis but the thought has crossed my mind). My nose is running, my glands are swollen, coughing, I feel very heavy,  you name it and I probably feel it today.

Today is one of those days, I do not feel strong at all! I feel very weak, which makes my eyes leak, as I write that. I long to feel normal, even though at this point I am not even sure what that feels like.   My baby is almost 6 months old  and I feel like I gave birth last week, instead of being fully recovered, like I should feel.  When I say I am exhausted, I am just done. I am not sure how I am pushing through at this point. I literally laid in bed with the boys last night, as Jax watched tv, and Cass played, I closed my eyes and drifted off into a light sleep (don't worry daddy was home with us, no kids harmed in my sleeping). It was one of those moments where I couldn't keep my eyes open.  No matter what I did, short of putting toothpicks on my eyelids, were those eyes staying open.   Thankfully at the moment I have my eyes open and am trying to get as much done as possible so that I can rest later. But they are super heavy this morning too!  It is almost as if i used all my energy getting the kids ready for their day.

I am so thankful for a supportive boss, co-workers, friends and family! Many of you have offered to take this all away from me. As appealing as that thought it, I would never wish this on anyone. I will endure this and get through this, especially with all this support I have!  BEST VILLAGE EVER!  Thank you all for everything!

Have an amazing day and cheers to me feeling better quickly!
#fightinglikeagirl #wegotthis #sicknessbegone #exhaustionbegone #normalpleasecomeback