As far as goodbyes go.. this one was good.. He hugged me so tight and just kept hugging.. I cried.. he teared up.. and hugged me tighter.. kissed my head.. kissed me.. and kept kissing me.. and hugging me, and kissing until he finally picked me up still kissing me and carried me to what was our room. We made love one last time. Got dressed.. hugged so more.. kissed so more.. said we loved each other.. kissed hugged.. said goodbye.. he looked at me with those piercing blue eyes and said he would call later and for me to be careful driving to tally.. he left just like he was going to work.. but he’s not coming back this time.
I feel relieved.. I miss the good side of him, I miss the life I thought we were going to have, but I do not miss the bad side of him the rude side.. but I do miss that good guy that I once knew. The sweet boy who would bring me home banana pudding because he knew how much I loved it. Who checked on me because he wanted to know how i was. Who would come over in the morning just because he wanted to see me. The man who couldn't stop kissing me .. The man that would make all my stress go away.. now he's the cause of the stress. I feel like a weight is lifted and though I miss my friend.. the person I have confided in for the past 3 years.. I know that I am better off. I know he is better off. He needs to find himself and be happy. I am happy. I love myself and who I am.. I hope that for him as well.
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