Day 170 - 2012 Perspective

Perspective is a funny thing.  Depending on your day, mood and surroundings, your perspective can change, even.  One day you can look at a glass and say "this is half full"  then the next day see the same glass, in the same exact condition and say "this glass is half empty".  So many things can effect our perspective.  The funny thing about perspective, is it is our own. We own it.  We decide how we will perceive something and how we will react to that perception.

When disappointments in life happen, it is hard to see the good.  It is hard to pull yourself out of that funk and see that everything happens for a reason.  It is hard to find a reason to be happy.  It is all your perspective and sometimes you are so close to the situation to see that, even though something hurts at the moment, that the pain will ease.  That situation, helps you be the person you  will become.  It helps you deal with things, you may not have wanted to deal with but had too.   Life is full of disappointments, and life also teaches you how to deal with them, if you step back and get perspective in a slightly different light.

I know for me personally, I would not be who I am, had I not gone through disappointments and learned how to overcome them.  Things I have had to deal with have taught me patience, love, forgiveness, not to sweat the small stuff, to smile more, how to make me happy, how not to vent (venting is bad for me, it makes me relive things over and over again.... and that is no good), and more many many more lessons.  My favorite lesson is how to make me happy.  Yes I have my bad days, but I also have learned to recognize those bad days and how to pull myself out of those days.  It breaks my heart to see friends go through life's disappointments and not be able to pull themselves out, not to see the bigger picture.  I want to help I want to make things right, but I have to be patient and just be there for them as they learn how to pull themselves out with a new perspective on their situation.

Everything comes back to perception, reaction and you.  Change your perception and reaction and you change you and your outlook on life.  Good luck, as it is a difficult journey but also worth trying!



"Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough” 
― Oprah Winfrey

“What you see and what you hear depends a great deal on where you are standing. It also depends on what sort of person you are.” 
― C.S. Lewis, The Magician's Nephew

“Life is 10 percent what you make it
and 90 percent how you take it.” 
― Irving Berlin

“Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.” 
― Wayne W. Dyer


“To change ourselves effectively, we first had to change our perceptions.” 
― Stephen R. Covey, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People

Day 169 - 2012 Growing pains

With moving in with anyone there are growing pains.  Everyone has a certain way they do things and it is hard to change, when you have a good routine going.  It is especially hard when someone moves in that has not been paying the bills (ie electric) in with someone who has lived on their own for a long time.  They forget that keeping tv's on or lights on cost money.  Growing pains  But even with little annoyances, you have to look at the bigger picture.  With a roommate it is, usually a friend so you do not want to lose the friendship over silly annoyances.  With moving in with a loved one, you definitely do not want to lose them over those little annoyances.   So you air your grievance and move on.  You pick your battles and move on.  I chose not putting on a new roll of toilet paper over not making the bed.   Some people just do not make their bed. I however love a made bed.  I love walking into a room and seeing the room nice and tidy.  It makes me happy.  

Growing pains are tough, but part of life. I am just thankful to be going through growing pains with someone like B.  I love having him around.  Even when he is frustrating.   Cheers to growing pains and working through them!

Day 168- 2012 Big weekend

Big big weekend!  Work today, JLJ then babysitting.  Then tomorrow is the big day!  B is moving to Jax!  WHOO HOO HOOOOOOOOOOO.  He is excited and nervous. I am just excited!  So ready for our life to begin together~

Can I make it through the next 24 hours without bursting?????????

Day 167 - 2012 Tension

Wow today is filled with tension.  Crazy, you can cut it with a knife.  The old me would have taken it personally.  But I cannot be responsible for others unhappiness.  I can only worry about me and making sure I am in a good place.   These past few weeks have been really trying. I have had to deal with Goober acting like a complete waste of space by ignoring the fact he is making me pay his loan and will not respond to any of my communication attempts.. can we say 5 year old?  That makes most people soooo angry and the old me would have let him get to me. Not this me.. this me is rising above, squashing the anger before it hits the surface. Anger for me is not a good or healthy emotion.  Some people thrive off of it.  It makes me a person I do not want to be. It is like a bad drug.  If I let it surface, it is hard to keep it away. I want to feed it, so it is best for me to squash it, before that happens.  Hey at least I realize it. No one is perfect, and I at least know most of my faults.   Got to look within for change!


I have had to deal with my own team mates not happy that I finally got promoted after 4.5 years or maybe they are just unhappy in general.  Either way, so sorry I have gone up and beyond my job description for all of these years and just not finally got recognized for it.. oh wait.. no I am not sorry. I have worked my butt off for this, so all the tension and dirty looks in the world are not taking this happy feeling away from me.  That is not my problem, but theirs. I have waited patiently, I have continued to keep my head down and work hard.  I had too make up for my horrible attitude during the Goober breakup.  I have well made up for it and proven I can change my attitude and out look on life. Change happens from within and I have done that!

I can let others effect me or I can move forward.  I can look back on who I was and dwell on my past or  I can look back and see how far I come and  be proud of who I am now.  I am proud of me.  I have made lots of changes for the better and love where I am in life. I will not let the tension of others bring me down. I will keep being happy and hopefully my happiness will rub off on others. I can only hope it will happen.  I just know that I did not chase down my happiness.  I worked hard to make changes in me and  because of those changes happiness found me.  I like being happy. I am not willing to give that up!

Day 166-2012. Fighting

Oy. Love it when a day starts off with a, misunderstanding that turns into a fight. But really it's a one sided fight. One person is upset over something and then takes something else the wrong way and focuses their frustration on that. I am not biting. Fight with yourself. I apologized and am done. Now I am giggling and feeling bad that  I cannot help him. Change makes people a little crazy even the most even killed person. And well there is a lot of change happening in his life right now.  I respect that and did not take the bait to enter the fight.

Now just a few short hours later, he was back to himself and the disagreement was over.  Even with these moments, there is no one else I would rather, fight with .  He is such an outstanding human being I will take and appreciate him good and bad.  Fights are not always a bad thing. Sometimes someone else just needs to be heard and appreciated (or given space.. whichever).  I am thankful regardless for someone like B.  

Everyone needs something or someone they are thankful for!  I am definitely thankful for B!!!!!

Day 165 - 2012 Excitement

So many good things happening.  I can barely contain my excitement.  The love will be here this weekend for good :)  That makes me super super happy, and a little nervous.  But good nervous.  It is nice to plan something with someone and watch it happen.  Be on the same page and just be excited about each other. I cannot even wait for the arguments.  LOL should be fun!

Promotion at work, even though it took 4.5 years is exciting.  Glad to be moving towards more graphic design and html creations.  I love being creative so this is right up my alley!   Hard work pays off!  It does it does.

My house is starting to come together!  The dining room has 4 blue walls.  I just need to finish the trim. I do love the colors. Colors make me happy. De-cluttering is still ongoing, but the house is looking so much better as I go.  Need to tackle the kitchen, though afraid of what I may find in those deep dark corners of those cabinets that have not been looked at in years. (another reason to go through and throw out things).  I am loving this new organized me.  Makes me feel good.  I have a new rug for the kitchen that makes the kitchen looks super pretty and new lampshades for the bedside lamps.  Love love love the way the house is looking.


So even though life throws in curve balls, like making me pay for my exes student loan that I stupidly co-signed on, life is good.  I will not let him dictate my mood or behavior.  I feel sorry for him.  I cannot imagine being 30 years old and having nothing to show for myself.  I bought my first house when i was 30 and he does not have a pot to piss in.  Sad very sad.   But a win for me not letting him get to me.

Lots of exciting things happening. Loving all that is happening and hope to keep this momentum going.  Should not be too hard with having my best friend living with me.  I feel like I have waited a lifetime for him and I kind of have!

Yay for exciting things!

Day 164-2012 Bestie kind of day

True friendship is amazing. I had the pleasure of spending today with one of fave besties. Simple day; coffee at the house, beach, lunch and shopping. With lots of laughs. It never matters what we do we have fun. S. supports me no matter what and is always there for me. I absolutely love her and am so thankful she is in my life. She even told me that if I could not have kids she would be my surrogate. Such love and kindness! I am a lucky gal to have such amazing friends in my life! So thankful for a fun relaxing amazingly perfect day! Now off to play with my little lovie!