Ringing the bell & bye bye port

Hi y'all

It has been awhile. Blogger still hasn't fixed their app so it makes it really hard to do write regularly with two small kids. Their blogs have been pretty sucky because of that too :(

So, my last infusion was 6-16-17.  Ringing the bell was an amazing feeling and 3 of my fave nurses were there to share it with me which made it all the better!  Jennifer and April have been there since day 1 and Sybil I have known since high school.

Here is the video of me ringing the bell: https://youtu.be/0QDxvhZ1tR4


I tried multiple times to get my port taken out and on the 3rd attempt the dr was able to do it in the office. It hurt like hell!  The stitches came out a little early for one side so it didn't heal the way it needed too. The scar will be a little thicker than it should but just one more battle scar right?

I go back tomorrow to the dr for my check up. Will be odd having to have blood drawn. I am so used to the port. I kinda miss Paulie the Port. He definitely saved me from a lot of hurt. I have mixed feelings about my active treatment being over. I am glad to not be spending thousands of dollars but at the same time it's bittersweet. I am jumping at any ache or pain that lasts too long. If I think my lymph nodes are swollen. It is an odd feeling knowing that something could be growing inside you trying to kill you and that you may never realize it. I never want that to happen again. I will trust my instincts.

I may need to get some therapy as I feel like all the weight from the past year is now falling on me. I feel like i am suffocating some days. I have stayed strong for so long.. it takes a toll.

I am thankful to be alive and know this chapter will pass soon too!

Thanks for being there for me!

Love
Jamie