Over the years, since that challenge and me looking at the positive instead of the negative (as well as dwelling on negative) I've gained a husband and kids. Well with those additions comes with sometimes it is really hard not to vent. Now I'm good about only venting to one person but still I hate it when I do it and it only makes me more frustrated if I can't change what I'm upset about.
Lately I've felt very under-appreciated, which in return makes me look and dwell on those negative traits. It's been a real challenge to stay positive when I just want to throw in the towel. I keep remembering a blog post I once read that stated, "not to get divorced when the kids are little". The reasoning was because you are sleep deprived and not funcfuoning on all cylinders. I get it. I do. I really do. Plus I don't want to lose my kids. They are my everything. They are my reasoning for crying when I think I'm being too negative or hard on myself/husband. They are my reasoning to look at the positive on things I cannot control and to believe it will all work out. They are why I wipe the tears and put on a brave face. They are why I start out every week with the no complaining challenge. Each week I make it a little longer without a complaint. I am not sure I will ever make it every day from now on without one. But one can hope that eventually I will automatically change that negative thought into a positive one before it ever hits my mouth or brain for that matter.
A shout out to all of you that are able to live complaint free! It's not easy so you rock!!
M
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